They say the best way to initiate change is to begin with yourself. I've always been quiet and reserved; only speaking when I feel it necessary. These aspects I do not wish to change. I had started working in the television and film industry in 2011 and in ...
They say the best way to initiate change is to begin with yourself. I've always been quiet and reserved; only speaking when I feel it necessary. These aspects I do not wish to change. I had started working in the television and film industry in 2011 and in that same year I was afflicted with an illness which, judging from what I was able to get from doctors, might be neurological in nature and possibly muscular.
The pain from chronically contracting muscles, specifically the infraspinatus, intercostal, and rhomboid; and the nerves on/in the upper right on my ribcage, the intercostal set, has made things like sitting up for 2 hours a painful chore. As of now I have no insurance so learning more about why I'm having these hyperactive nerve misfires remains a mystery.
During the first 6 months after October 4th, in 2011, the pain was so intense I was barely able to just sit up in bed, let alone walk down the hall to the bathroom or go downstairs and eat. I started going to doctors once I'd gotten used to the level of pain and it took about another year after that for me to find a doctor who wanted to help me and not just prescribe me things and send me away. From there I still had to deal with doctors telling me there was nothing wrong with me. A pain management specialist about another year later would tell me the words "infraspinatus" and the others which I mentioned earlier. Then I would finally find a neurologist who actually wanted to run some tests to figure this out. It was at this time when I would age out of being covered by my parents insurance and I'd be left on my own to try and figure out what was wrong with me.
However during my time of being unable to functionally work in the trades I had trained in, automotive and film/television, I started trying to think of things to keep my mind busy to fight against depression and thinking it was all psychosomatic and maybe I was just making up this sharp, stabbing, constricting pain. I'd finally gotten to something I wanted to do for a while, writing. I did my best to learn about the various aspects of fictional writing and the parts of story. I also started looking into electronics which have always fascinated me to the point of dismantling a friends PSX when we were kids ( i got in so much trouble).
This brings me to now.
It may have taken longer than I liked, but I've gotten to a new place mentally. I know I'm not making up this pain and I've found things to do that will expand my skill set despite only being able to sit or stand for, sometimes, minutes at a time. I've resolved to learning the Python language and teaching myself 3D modeling with the free software Blender. I've written 2 books, one which I felt was good enough to sell on Amazon and am currently querying agents for my latest work. On good days I can go for a bike ride; those are rare. On bad days I stay in bed and try to take in as much new information I can.
I know there are people in worse situations than I am in. I have my family to fall back on, my own room, and a computer on which to learn new skills. I dare not equate my situation to someone worse off than I, but I have come to an understanding. If I fight I can get through anything and so can you.
Asgardia stands to be a vehicle for massive good but in order for it to accomplish all the great things you want the first Space Nation to accomplish, you have to start with yourself.